"Hang Me Out to Dry"
After the familial fallout associated with one of my previous posts, I had all but walked away from this blog. I felt violated in this, the one place, I thought I could really express my true thoughts on life. I was using this as an online journal of thoughts which were primarily reserved for people who cared about me. It never occurred to me that people who had zero interest in me as a person in real life would read my blogs. It just didn’t make sense and therefore I had no way to prepare myself for the eventuality that occurred; which was I wrote something that didn’t sit well with people who unfortunately felt the need to rain a storm of accusation and recrimination on my shoulders.
This outburst made me sick and I felt trapped by the loss of this once beloved place. In this absence and in my illness, I chose to shut down all writing and avoided contact with most people.
One month ago today, I was preparing to delete every post I had ever written and wash my hands of this whole experience. Prudence begged that I needed to not be so impetuous, I needed to stop, walk away, give myself time to figure out if I could allow enough time to pass where I would feel safe and confident to post again.
Today, I am still not sure. But since I went from being a fairly prolific writer to complete radio silence for the last month I used that time to make some tough decisions about what I would chose to write about if I had the chance.
So while I try to figure that out; I thought I would include the following hot video by a new band I’ve found a deep affinity for. Please enjoy:
This outburst made me sick and I felt trapped by the loss of this once beloved place. In this absence and in my illness, I chose to shut down all writing and avoided contact with most people.
One month ago today, I was preparing to delete every post I had ever written and wash my hands of this whole experience. Prudence begged that I needed to not be so impetuous, I needed to stop, walk away, give myself time to figure out if I could allow enough time to pass where I would feel safe and confident to post again.
Today, I am still not sure. But since I went from being a fairly prolific writer to complete radio silence for the last month I used that time to make some tough decisions about what I would chose to write about if I had the chance.
So while I try to figure that out; I thought I would include the following hot video by a new band I’ve found a deep affinity for. Please enjoy:
posted by Jennifer at 11:32 PM
3 Comments:
Cool song. I think you mean "affinity" though. :) I know, I'm a spelling/grammar Nazi.
Happy Inappropriate Card Day!
Man....I take a month off and look what it gets me; Misspellings. ;) Thank you so much for pointing out the error, I have corrected it so no one else can enjoy my infinity mistake. :D
That is a DAMN good song...recorded on my Sirius already. :) Glad to see you writing again...and you know as well as I do that people who don't TRULY know one's familial history will never TRULY understand what you're saying about them...I feel your pain on that one, fo' sho'.
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